I’m decidedly not a music lover, a stance which is mostly likely the result of my auditory processing difficulties. Indoor live concerts are sensory hellscapes of personal endurance after which my ears feel like they are bleeding. Necessarily, my enjoyment of music is found in small doses in specific settings.
My favorite type of song is one that plays well on the open road or in an outdoor setting surrounded by woods and parks. Exploring country roads while blasting alternative rock was a mainstay of my coping methods as a teenager. It fascinates me to revisit songs such as Jimmy Eat World’s The Middle, which felt so full of encouragement to me when I was young but appear now so limited in worldview when I listen as an adult. To me, another of my younger-self’s favorites, Black Lab’s music, seems to have held up better and still makes for a great driving soundtrack.
In regards to music which evokes pagan and deep nature themes, Faun is both haunting and merry, depending on the specific song selection. In my experience, nothing replaces live music with this type of energy. The best band I saw in person (many years ago) was Baka Beyond. I dance poorly and without coordination; listening to them was the first time in my life I felt comfortable moving my body in rhythm in the presence of other people as all of us were celebrating together.
I feel jealous at times when I observe others “getting” music on a level or in a way I can tell I don’t have access. I’m joyful, though, for the experiences I have had where I feel connected to others through the sounds and movements music engenders. What is your relationship with music? What songs or bands are speaking to you lately?